My Dream House

Last night I had a dream that can only be described as wish fulfilment. I dreamed that I was moving into a new house. It only cost 20,000 a month in my dream but it was a stunning penthouse. I was looking through the bedroom first. There was an adjoining room so cavernous I was sure I would use it as my office even though it had no windows ... I didn't notice at first it was just a walk-in closet. There was a long corridor and at the far end of the house was another huge living room. It was only the rugs I didn't like — they were sort of fake, but I knew I could move in new rugs from my old home. In this big corner room, Paye Srinarong was playing the violin, He asked me how I managed to get this house for only 20,000 a month.

I left the house briefly and found a complex of other houses and restaurants, all very elegant. When I went back I told the people who were helping me move, "We won't starve here."

I went back to the bedroom. On the way there was an antechamber to the bedroom and I realized the rugs were much better here. There was a blue rug with a Turkish design (according to the dream, but the design was actually Persian) and at the entrance to my bedroom there was another blue rug. "Now THAT one is worth money," I said in the dream, "look at the abrash on it." It was faded but beautiful.

I walked back down the corridor again. Turning left and left again I found a second corridor. It was so narrow I had to navigate it sideways. On my right was just wall but on my right were weird machines behind heavy metal doors. There was also a master fuse box for the entire building. I realized that the entire complex was being run from my penthouse. When I arrived at the other side of the corridor I found a beautiful room with two recessed alcoves on either side of a beautiful inset column. I realized that this room could be the library. It was all done in sky blue. "But where will we have tea?" I was thinking. 

Then I turned and saw on the other side of the corridor a beautiful room with blue Louis XV style chairs arranged in a circle. Why, there is the tea room, I thought. Moving further along, there was an identical room next to it. Perhaps a deeper hue of blue. I said, O good, one room for tea and one as a dining room.

As I woke up I began to realize that 20,000 a month wasn't so cheap; I had been thinking it was Thai baht, but in fact it may have been American dollars....

Anne Frank

In the wee hours this morning I saw Anne Frank in a dream. She was an old woman, but she still had a freshness in her voice, a childlike quality to her demeanor. She said to me very clearly, just as I was waking, "If I had survived the Holocaust, I'd be the same age as your mother today. Remember to tell everyone this isn't something that happened in ancient times. People are still here who were there."

It's almost true. Actually she would be three years older than my mother, but in my dream, the year of the diary was 1947... three years later than the actual events ... and the war was still going on.

It makes me think that the dream came from an alternate reality where history was a little different. Maybe, in that reality, she did survive, and was speaking to me across an intercosmic chasm.

Defining Love

What a dream. I was watching a production of Siegfried. I was watching from a box that overlooked the stage so intimately that I could reach out and touch the singers. It was a somewhat avant-garde production.

The scene is not in the opera as far as I know. Siegfried is being asked to define what love is. The person he was talking to was not a character in the opera, but was some kind of supernatural being such as a dwarf or elf. He starts to sing, in German, "what is this feeling that makes you shudder, tremble, flare up, burst into flame?" These lines are in fact somewhat reminiscent of Mime's description of fear in act one. The music however sounds a little bit like Helen singing about love in the third act of Michael Tippett's King Priam.

As Siegfried sings, he is eating slices of duck and noodles which he removes with chopsticks from a glass cabinet set in front of him, similar to the cabinets found in Chinese noodle shops. There are also dim sum in the cabinet.

As I intently lean over, a chef in a tall hat comes to the front of the stage. To my annoyance he places a large round flan of bread on a cutting board in front of Siegfried. He pours sauce and mincemeat topping over the bread as if he's making a pizza. But then he takes a squeeze bottle of ketchup and squirts it all over the right half of the pizza. The smell rises up and as I'm allergic to it makes me very ill. He folds the pizza. This covers up the ketchup and fixes the smell.

I lean over to my companion at the opera who appears to be the stage designer Stephanie Mielchen. I tell her this kind of thing is completely normal on stage.

Tea with the Earl

Jan 14, 2017 10:07am

I dreamt that I was at a posh party, possibly one thrown by the Earl of Warwick. At this party it wasn't quite clear whether I was one of the guests, or the Butler. In any case, at one point I was being called upon to demonstrate the proper pronunciation of "your majesty". An American lady in a tiara was imitating me without success.

Another guest said to her, "you will never be able to say that because you didn't go to Eton." She began complaining. The guest explained, "you couldn't have gone because only boys went there."

There were some huge glass windows looking out onto the lawn where other guests sat. They were at elegant tables, with white clawed legs, and glass tops. A man in tails with a bushy white beard said to me, through the window, "there are only two Etonians at this party. So why are you the Butler?"

I responded, "I shouldn't be, but as I'm the only miserable Oriental in the room, I'm forced to play the role of a miserable domestic."

"Oh I see" said the bearded man. "Then
You must recall this obscure publication called the unitary papers. This fellow, Broadley Spearley, was a member. They were very controversial."

I was laughing. I said, "oh you must mean Aubrey Beardsley. I remember him well."

"You're that old?" He said

"No no, I don't remember him literally. I studied about it. He was with Byron." (by the way Byron went to Harrow so this was a mistake in my dream.) "They had this publication which was very sexually liberated."

I could see the publication in my minds eye. It was tabloid size, with an illustration of a bright orange flame.

At that point something very crucial happened but now I'm desperately trying to remember it. Then I woke up.

Thais and Turks

So I continued to dream this night, but they were less fantasy and horror. I dreamed I was in a small room in an armchair and to my right, a girl was using a computer. She stood up from her chair and another girl walked into the room (an L shaped room). The other girl said, "I have to watch TV." She breezed in and grabbed the cushion from the chair where the computer girl had risen from, and just sailed out of the room.

Incensed, I follow and there's a small corridor that leads left and opens into a small room where a bunch of girls are all watching TV. Their faces are covered with blankets. I start shouting, "Don't you know she was using that pillow! How dare you! You are a bunch of unmannerly women, not properly brought up!" 

The odd thing was that the whole dream was in Thai, which is unusual for me as English was my first language.

The next dream I had, I was at a Turkish fast food stand trying to order a Soltani (something I've only had in Persian restaurants). I was trying to speak Turkish to the girl behind the counter and wondering whether I should call her "hatun". Then I went round the corner to the men's room. I was telling someone while peeing that I was addicted to this Turkish mini-series. 

Then I woke up....

Everyone Knows

I had an amazing dream. First I was in a bookstore and I was reading a magazine that told that the origins of my fame where in sleazy horror films even though they are all obscure now. It was a strange magazine because the text was in four squares of print instead of two columns. It mentioned my old film "The Laughng Dead" and claimed it had made me a household name after an obscure past.

Then I was standing outside in the night under a lamppost with a guy named Stephen and telling him I read that magazine. I said, "Yes in those days I took any monster job I could get. One time I played a ball of grease in a gas station. I would lie in wait and attack the wheels and gasoline and metal of cars."

As we stood there there was a view of a car with bright headlights along a deserted country road at night. The road had a railing and I think it overlooked an abyss.

"Funny," he said, "there was a gas station like that in my old school. In fact the grease ball monster was well known. Everyone knew to avoid that gas station at night. Only ghosts used it. It was known ... we had one gas station for the dead, and one for the living."

"Yeah," I said, "Everyone knows that kind of thing."

I woke up.

You are Mine

A recurring dream last night in which I am sitting in a restaurant facing a wall. At the next table, there is a family with two children, one of them a baby. It's a small baby, looks like about 1 year old, but we recognize each other. The baby keeps looking at me and smiling and has bright eyes, he's wearing an orange shirt. I say, "I know you. You are mine, but somehow we weren't born in the right place."

Triplets

I had a dream that I and Mikey were sort of the same person and we (I) was being raised in an orphanage. A murder occurs in the orphanage and we are all assigned a public defender, a plump, dark-skinned guy who talks very loudly. He is dressed in green.

Now Mikey and I are separate people and I'm campaigning to have him get a separate lawyer, and a woman in a white business suit is hired. She is clearly a top laywer. We walk into the courtroom and the accused kids are all being barked at by the dark-skinned lawyer, loudly disturbing the courthouse. So Mikey's lawyer says, "Not him, he as his own counsel." She takes Mikey to a different part of the room which is elevated, with a bar counter, all wood, wooden panels, wood plank flooring.

The other lawyer is perfectly willing to get rid of one of his clients, but there seems to be some resentment.

We all hear that from time to time, the circus comes to the courthouse, but it is legendary; no one has ever seen. But the court calls a recess and suddenly the walls are gone and we are standing in a forest clearing ... only everyone is gone and only Mikey and I are left and now we are the same person again.

Suddenly, running in from the right across our view, the circus does show up. Or is it an army? First there is a troop of mysterious people cloaked from head to toe in turquoise coats, then a band of soldiers in bright red Ottoman Empire clothing, then more and more color-coded regiments. They are all running across what looks like a wooden bridge. I don't see a body of water though, just a sea of leaves.

I (and Mikey) decide to walk forward, to see these people up close. We cross the clearing and enter the forest pathway. They are all standing now, a kind of mediaeval army with knights and lords, very brightly colored, mostly crimsons. They seem hostile, but I begin to sing a national anthem - a cappella - very boldly. It's a militaristic kind of anthem and the words are in a weird language, but the second half is repeated, with triplets decorating the tune. As I walk towards them singing, their hostility becomes acceptance. I wake up.

Railway Station

I had a complex dream sequence last night. First, I was in a magnificent waiting room and I was ushered into the presence of a powerful, richly dressed king. He was seated at a business desk and in the process of writing a check for one million baht. He said to me, "I'm leaving the addressee blank. You can either pay the foundation, or yourself." 

I knew it made no difference because virtually every penny that comes my way somehow ends up working for the foundation anyway .... I woke up. 

When I went back to sleep, I was trying to tell people about my dream (this was in another dream!), but they wouldn't believe me ... not even my mother. 

Then I suddenly found myself in a huge — railway station of some kind — in the company of a group of travelling musicians. We were all journeying towards the place where we would perform. There was a huge communications system in the station with mouthpieces scattered around the station, connected by a system of tubes. They were information systems; you speak into the mouthpiece and an answer comes out.

The musicians have been testing the machine's ability to speak Turkish and they all told me it's not good. "Maybe it's having a problem with your Uighur accent," I tell the main musician who oddly enough appears to be Daniel Draganov who as far as I know speaks German, Czech, and maybe Russian. 

I tell him, "I've picked up some Turkish from watching this miniseries, but it's only useless words like "hünkârim" and I wouldn't have anyone I could actually address as such. Although I've also figured out that çok means 'very'." 

We pass through very narrow alleys. I wonder why we have to walk, why the organizers of the concert didn't send a car. Suddenly the alley opens out and there is an angular grassy slope that leads straight to an ocean of incredible blueness. Our goal is on the opposite shore.

I wake up.

Visa to Nowhere

My dream — I had a nightmare. I was standing with Mike at a counter which looked like a Post Office counter, and I was trying to get Mike a visa. But instead they said to me, your visa to Thailand has expired. You must leave in 100 days. I said, "But this is a Thai passport!" They said, "Didn't you look at the stamp when you last came in? You must leave!" Then in my dream, the head of the PR department of the Ministry of Foreign Affairs was on the phone and said, "Shame on you! You must leave!"

Quartet...

I have a dream. The shounen thai quartet was rehearsing in my house. One of them was missing. They were all wondering who could play. They looked across the street and called out the name of someone who used to play in the quartet. But it wasn't him. Several more people walked by.

Secondly the quartet was actually rehearsing but it had a lot more than four people in it. It had a conductor too. The conductor was my orchestra manager, Now. Also, they were playing not in my house, but on the pavement across the street from my house. And I was watching from the other side of the road.

They began to play a piece called Quartet no. 4 in g major by Jay. One of the violinists said, but what is the piece called? The conductor said ask Ajaan.

I said, it doesn't have a name as such. It's just a quartet and a number and it is in G major. It doesn't need to have a name.

That violinist, who had never been a member of this Quartet, and was a little bit chubby, said, I don't understand it. How can a piece of music not have a name?

I said classical music is like that. It only needs to have a number and a key and what kind of piece it is. In this case, it's a quartet.

They started to play. I woke up.

House by a River

It's 4:53 AM and I woke him up from this terrifying and beautiful dream which I'm trying to write down before it fades. First, in the dream I am a woman living alone and I have three encounters with a killer who's trying to move into my house. I've already forgotten most of the first encounter. In the second it's a sort of Victorian mansion and I succeeded in getting away. The mansion is full of red velvet walls and golden baroque molding.

In the last encounter, I'm escaping to a house by a river. It's a house with white washed walls next to a pier and a river. The killer follows me. I send him away by forcing him to sing a sort of cursed song in D major which makes him unable to stop moving and he and a woman he is with go away by boat when they leave a strange woman enters the room and begins dancing in a jerking way. She is in white. I'm thinking St. Vitus dance. Thrashing around. Then she stops and the killer returns. I realize that I have a choice of sending him and his friend away with the song, or forcing the mad dance to enter them. I send them off again with the wild song.

I run into a room, a breakfast room in a hotel. And try to write down this dream. And I do so my sister shows up and starts telling me a story. Please don't please don't I say. I'm trying to write down this dream. It's so important and I'll forget it. She keeps talking over me. I finally leave the room and start writing the dream out in another room. In this dream, I can barely remember anything except the third encounter. I keep writing that I'm a suburban woman. Then I keep correcting myself. Because there's not actually a suburb. As I do so, I wake up.

I've already forgotten so many of the details. I'm going to go back to bed now and maybe more will come back to me.

4 hours after the last dream I woke up from a different dream ... still staying at some hotel, I am on my way to breakfast down a path with flagstones under an awning, but I have to vacuum the path as I go. The "vacuum cleaner" is a pole with a flexible joint and a completely circular metal plate with a sort of gauze pad that has contact with the ground. The vacuum cleaner doesn't work well (indeed I can't see any visible power supply or source), and by the time I get to the breakfast area my gauze is worn. I shout out to a busboy, I need a new vacuum cleaner. I wake up.

Another Journey

I had a dream. It started when I and Nath and some other people were trying to cross a huge muddy river. There were bridges ... rickety, dangerous ones. One in particular did reach the other side where there were red sandstone cliffs and caves. We left it too late and the I could see that the end of the bridge was now submerged, but I thought that I could still cross and leap across to the other side.

We walked. It took forever. It was a black, asphalt bridge, a thin ribbon, and the distance was really far, and reaching the end, more of the bridge was underwater than I thought. There was no way to walk. I jumped. The water was awful - it was dirty and it stung and was full of lacerating objects. It was agony and I screamed "No, no, it's dangerous!" But I managed to make it across.

The next obstacle was a cave mouth. We entered and were looking for a lever or button so that the cave would open out further or there would be a doorway. Other members of our party were pushing at various slits or holes when suddenly a huge metal door came flying up with a huge clang, trapping those people when their whole floor flew underground and they perished. Only Nath and I remained. 

We were on either side of a low barricade and we decided to keep moving until we reached a restaurant. We had heard of an Indian restaurant that was right nearby by a wall prevented us from reaching it. I'll just go on until this barricade ends, I said, and we'll connect up when there's a gap.

The barricade ended up stretching a long way. It was a dusty journey. All along the barricade, to my right, workmen were building something. The whole city was constantly under construction, shifting, with soaring mountainsides and doorways in the cliffs that seemed to be inaccessible. I kept waking until I noticed that the barricade where all the workmen were building something was really an entire river; I could see the water flowing through gaps in the planking and the water was the color of emerald. I had lost Nath completely.

I kept walking and presently reached a new part of the city where the barricade had ended. I was apparently no longer over the river. I reached a T junction. Across the street was a black-walled mountain and on the street corner was a frosted glass store front called "Wada Science Fiction." 

I know this place, I thought. (At first it looked like the Other Change of Hobbit bookstore in Berkley.) I called Nath on my cell phone. I said, I'm fine now, I've found a science fiction store that I recognize, remember, I wrote SF in the old days, this is familiar territory. Nath tells me he and Muay are sitting in a restaurant just on the other side of the science fiction store.

So I cross the street (it us an old street, perhaps cobbled or at any rate very worn). The door of the science fiction store is open but I don't recognize any of the objects. I realize it is not the store I knew before.

I walk to the right where there is a turn (the mountain ends) and I can round the corner. All of sudden there is the back of the store, but they are not selling science fiction. It's an assortment of Hindu gods, brightly colored, many heads and arms, statues that line the path and then there are steps up to a plateau where thousands more gods are on sale. I realize that I am already carrying a golden, heavy god statue in a black shoulder bag (I haven't been aware that I had this bag until this moment.) The gods on the hill are gleaming, glistening, very colorful. The shop is more like a pagoda, with steps and levels (not a Thai pagoda but more like a Japanese one). I go on past the shop, heaving towards the restaurant where Nath is waiting, though I have a feeling I am still not close to where he is.

Swallowing the Cat

I had a dream about snakes. There were snakes in my house. I was with my son Johnny. We each had snakes hidden in our rooms. We were scared and yet the snakes were sacred. We met in the corridor outside our bedrooms. Suddenly a cat darted into Johnny's room. I heard terrifying screeching sound because the snake in Johnny's room had pounced and swallowed the cat whole. I suddenly realized that I could not move the snake because it was full of the cat and could not be moved. I woke up.

Plaisir d'Amour

I dreamed that I had to give a vocal recital standing on the concrete steps leading into a big hotel. The audience was sitting in another building, a banquet hall to my left. The audience was invisible. Ratana, my secretary, was sitting in the driveway/ I was holding down the fort because the actual performer was supposed to be Thanachai Ujjin, but he had been delayed. Finally the concert was almost over and the star still had not shown up. So I started to sing "Plaisir d'amour". By the way, since the audience was in another room (and the orchestra was elsewhere as well) I had no idea whether I was being heard at all, except by my secretary. I extended the opening phrase of the song over and over, hoping that my relief would come, but eventually I had to get to "chagrin d'amour dure toute la vie". I sang this phrase while rotating and lifting my arms to the sky. Then I woke up.

Alas, poor Yorick....

In my dream I am a gravedigger in a mediaeval town. There is no sunlight, it is neither day nor night. Thousands of black coffins stand on a row of trestles that stretches as far as the eye can see. We work quickly in shifts. More and more corpses are brought in, in white shrouds. One comes in and I don't think it is quite dead. Though completely shrouded I know it is a woman.

"This is the worst part of our job," says my fellow gravedigger. I learn that there is a plague that is agonizing and people can never recover. "But believe me, what we do is better than letting them suffer."

"Bury them alive?" I say in the dream, thinking we will lower the quivering non-corpse into the ground and shut the lid.

"Use the mallet," he says. "Strike the top of the cranium and smash it, one swift blow." 

The woman whimpers. I wonder if I dare.

The House Concert from Hell

I had a dream that I was giving a house concert at the home of the Austrian ambassador. Various people were singing different songs. Finally they asked me to sing. I got up and walked around the dining room singing the immolation scene from Götterdämmerung. 

I was singing The words Der Gattin trügend, treu dem Freunde. Everyone was surprised that I could sing. I sang in a very quiet restrained way, almost in falsetto.

The next song was Ständchen by Schubert. It was more appropriate to the occasion. I remember thinking about the etymology of the title. About how it means a little stand. In the dream, the words are distorted. Instead of leise flehen meine Lieder, The words are leise stehen. In my dream I think, there you go a little stand.

Then I went upstairs phone went and when I came down all the guests were gone except for a strange little half bald man sitting in a corner with headphones and a keyboard. He was singing into a microphone. He was recording a second track onto this computer because he had already played the accompaniment.

I didn't recognize this person and the style of the music was quite different from the concert. Then someone handed me a big bottle of wine. This is Godassi. He said do you know what this is? I said no. He said then you failed the wine test and I'm going to give it to someone else.

(note that in the dream, I misquoted Wagner - it should be "die Gattin trügend". By putting "Gattin" in the dative, I made her an indirect object ... but I think it is significant in the dream somehow)

Pint-sized Aliens

In my dream I land on the planet where the enemy aliens are only 3 feet tall. They capture me. They say they must ride me. I must become a horse. I'm doubled up and I'm placed on all fours. And they ride me towards an enemy city. Suddenly we are now in a medieval fantasy. I am a Trojan horse. I don't remember that much of what happens next. But I remember feeling that my hands on it myself and trying to strangle myself with the hands that aren't my own. And in the dream waking up and telling someone else about the horror of it and then realizing I'm not awake...

I just remembered that there's a dragon's cave in the city that we are charging... but I can't remember how I got from the medieval stuff to the bed strangling sequence....

Raining Hats (and Dogs?)

I remember two dreams from last night very clearly. In the first dream I'm composing a piece of music that somehow manages to "confront" hell itself. The melody is a bit like some of the Baba Yaga music in Pictures at an Exhibition, but there are three big bass drum strokes in between each iteration. The melody is heavy on augmented fourths.

In my second dream I'm part of a group of evacuees from a terrible war. We are in a plane and the plane is going down somewhere. We are young, children really. One in particular is very young, boy with curly hair, a brunette, and a straw hat.

The plane is going down. we're trying to save our belongings. We gather up a lot of hats. I have a pile and he has a plan and there's a half eaten sub meatloaf sandwich.

But the plane breaks up in mid air and as we watch, Thousands upon thousands of hats flying over a temperature countryside. The hats all mingled. It is a beautiful sight. Almost like a flock of birds.

Back on earth, somehow we managed to land safely but someone has stolen all the hats and they are already being sold in souvenir shops in what looks like a small French Village. My little friend is enraged and wants to lead an expedition to get the hats back. I see the half eaten sandwich on a plinth in a store window. We run into the store and start shooting. As it happens, I realize there are many more stores to invade, thousands more hats to recover.

The Perfect Predator

 

In my dream I'm in a huge aquarium. It's filled with beautiful and exotic fish. There is green fluorescent exotic snakelike fish. There is another fish which is flat and green and metallic. It is the fish that is deadly poisonous and it hangs motionless in the water. It has disguised itself as seaweed and only the fanged, flat snakehead is identifiable. Looking at it, thinking it is the perfect predator.

I only look away for a minute, When suddenly the water has drained away to a small puddle at the bottom of the aquarium.

People in white uniforms are gazing through the glass.

I ask where the flat green metal snake has gone. Nobody knows. They tell me someone has stolen it or that it is writhing through the building.

They tell me that there is no way out from the control room behind the aquarium, except for a narrow pathway for the technicians to use the toilet.

The phone rang. And woke me up.